Sunday, February 27, 2005
tags...
to BEN: haha...yea of course too much sadness makes u numb...but i guess its how u see it again...juz like u can choose between anger and happiness...i think to a certain extent u can choose between sadness and happiness as well...u can choose to let go and be happy...or u can choose to cling on and continue being down...:) ...anyways. i like ur blog "story" haha.
to SHU: haha. i'll make u fit if u guys continue hiding my shoes!. :p...u dun stress tooo~ haha. study hard.
to GERALD 2: haha. i dun shop so much ok! dun make things seem like tt when they aren't realli true...now i'm working hard k!. haha study study study. ok at least for last week's exams. though i think i'll still get an F somewhere.
to ANONYMOUS: so who r u!!! haha the "nice" one... Li en izzit?
Juannnn [11:47 PM]
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Anger Management?
been feeeling frustrated with practically everythin tts been going on in my life these few days...the worhip team probably felt it...sorri if i was impatient and stuff...things were juz not realli going well...and thx to Shir and Ken aka zhubaDI for cheering me upp :)... anyways to my beloved couz: dun worry anymore abt today's worship k...u tried ur best...and u left everythin to Him...so be happy and leave today behind ks...juz know that u're doing this to worship Him and serve Him to glorify His name. there may b a lot of technical "defects" during practice and even during the actual thing but these are all minute compared to wad we're actually doing this for...:) well i read a passage on Anger Management. haha...abt how when u're frustrated and angry...u should turn to Him and talk to Him...to iron things out...get the wrong things right again in ur life...think of it...its quite true...u haf onli 2 choices...to be angry or to be happy... isn't the answer obvious...always think of wad my Dad says again...if u are able to forgive u will be able to not be angry...seriously if my Dad were to be a christian. i tink he would make a gd preacher man. haha.
When anger lingers in our hearts,
It poisons all we think and do;
But faith seeks ways to show God's love
And keeps our spirit strong and true. -D. De Haan
well...exams are over...but its back to sch again...Tues's combine founders day....with all the ACS schs...sounds interesting...haha once in 4 yrs...hmmmz...time to sleeep. zzz. "For every minute u're angry, you lose 60 secs of happiness" -Daily Bread
Juannnn [11:35 PM]
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Tears are a gift frm God?
i think its quite true...imagine life without tears. when u'r sad u can't cry....when u're happy u can't cry. u can't express ur emotions...nor let ur emotions out...its like sth He's given to u...to accompany u when u're sad and down...even during ur most joyous moments. so i guess being sad isn't for nth either. :)
to SHU: ...SHOE = SHU?! haha. fine. ask Amanda to hide u in Huimin's cupboard nx time. heehee.
to Anonymous & Char :...the apparently nice one....yea sounds like the KWA family's "style of talking"...hahaha...is tt gd or bad?.
to zhuba DI: haha yea i'm fine. feeeling much much better hee hee. thankies.
i guess i've been pretty stressed out the past week as well...i juz hate it...i'm so so tired...but when its realli time for me to sleep. i juz can't. instead i'm left awake and mentally and physically tired...feeels terrible.
Finally met up with Abz again...for our once in a blue moon shopping. haha. always haf fun catching with her...VJC stories...and more. :)
tired...tuition tml still...hope all goes well during main service worship tml...hee hee...
Juannnn [12:05 AM]
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Thursday, February 24, 2005
over and done with...
terms are finally coming to an end...maths was damn tough...chem spa tml is a blur...i seriously haf absolutely no faith in thermochem...and its the actual A levels. haha looks like i'm headed nowhere nx yr...
haha well...today i realisde its quite a jo shopping for ppl. for no apparent reason...today bought my bro a t-shirt...and though he din say anythin much. but for once he din "reject" it. haha. got this cd as well...dunno y i bought it..but dun realli regret though..."Late Night Moods"...featuring norah jones...jamie cullum etc etc...
watched touched by an angel this afternoon...i think u actually learn sth abt God...or at least revive sth u already know abt God...it was abt coincidences...how they're opportunities...things may seeem v. wrong. but coz of these opportunities God has created, the nx moment they're solved...temptations are there all the time...but He uses them to make u a better person in Christ...but practically everywhere u are...there'll be temptations...big or small...and sometimes its juz hard for u to resist...
Juannnn [10:37 PM]
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anonymous is NOT a NAME.
to anonymous:
if u got nth to hide...u would already openly confront me...rather than saying i got a problem with u...when u created the problem.
you wan to know the truth? i'll tell u the truth. i got ABSOLUTELY NTH to do with ur BF. we're juz FRENS. u understand the term FRENS. go check the dictionary. so wads the problem now?
and...whether i'm like WHAT to every guy...its not like u dunno me. we were frens. suppose u dun treat me like one anymore. juz because u got hurt once doesn't mean tt he will...u gotta have faith and trust in him...doesn't time tell? its been arnd 2 yrs already right...seriously. juz try it for a few days u'll find tt u're a much happier person. why let everythin worry u.
unless i've done sth seriously wrong to u and u got proof to show it...i'll accept it. otherwise. pls think thru wad u've said or wad u are gonna say.
Juannnn [1:51 PM]
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Wednesday, February 23, 2005
sigh
relieved...yet stressed...by other things...i was realli nasty to everyone today...but i dunno y ppl juz dun understand i am tired too...i juz felt like i'm in a dream...ever since terms started...prepared or not? i dunno...i'm so saturated i can't feel anythin anymore.
"Often we allow ourselves to be upset by small things we should despise and forget. We lose many irreplaceable hours brooding over grievances that, in a year's time, will be forgotten by us and by everybody. No, let us devote our life to worthwhile actions and feelings, to great thoughts, real affections and enduring undertakings." -Maurois, Andre, 1885-1967 French Writer
Juannnn [11:30 PM]
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Sunday, February 20, 2005
doom is coming.
like in a few hours....its GP terms...haha...basically i think i studied the last 2days..but not up to the amt of time i had...like falling asleep frm 3-6pm yest...sigh.
i haf a bad feeling abt terms...i dun wanna go SSP!.
sigh sigh
dinner with Rachie and family always "fun"...with nonsense and all...like us being able to guess wad the adult order AGAIN and AGAIN right rach. haha.
Auntie Kar Foon seemed so shocked to see me in church today...hmmm. but today's session was particularly emotional to a certain extent...with Auntie Kar Foon's outburst on the worship today...praying for our unsaved loved ones...and paul ho...who's going on mission tml...when everythin seems to be in place...there is actually unperfect stuffs...like non-christians we still hafta reach out to...like my Dad ...after so many yrs he's still so stubborn...even bringing him to a cell's dinner is so tough...but i guess God has his plans...Tim said ask then he'll slowly reveal his plans to u right...so i'm asking now...
better go sleeep so i dun fall asleep during my paper AGAIN.
Juannnn [10:44 PM]
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Saturday, February 19, 2005
wad can go wrong WILL go wrong.
isn't the title so true...i should've juz ponned sch today lar...to think i dragged Vic to chem lec...juz to get shouted at and made to stand for half the lecture...yea mayb i was wrong...but i dun tink i've done sth that he can't accept.
well Sean Tan already into 2nd lec on Amines...and since i din come i din know...and my fren took my notes home and din come and i din know too...so i tried to call my chem rep across the aisle...juz when Sean Tan said no more talking if not u shall stand for the whole lecture...and suddenly:
ST: the GIRL OVER THERE! yes YOU stand up!. *pointing at me*
ST: i told u not to talk and u juz did!
me: Sir! i was getting my notes frm my chem rep over there
ST: oh. 2nd lec and u DON'T haf ur notes
me: i din come yest
ST: *loss at words for a moment*
ST: go take ur notes now....*pause* and u shall remain standing...
well so there i went standing in middle of the whole LT...for the nx 20 min...how embarrassing...Piggy juz went laughin incessantly the nx few times he saw me thruout the day.
anyways...later on...we were going into a lift...and Vic accidentally pressed the close button instead. and there i got hit by the lift...now suffering frm a few blue blacks...wad a way to end my "sch term" b4 exams...sigh.
anyways...gd news...Xiaohui is up and abt...! haha she even came to sch for chem prac today...woman! u better go rest more...u still sound a lil gong gong. haha. but Vic and i juz couldn't help but find the stories of how u fainted comical...probably coz of the way ppl described it. juz take care ksss
still aching madly...and tml's another mad gym session...sigh this realli sux...he's practically piling heavy weights on us lar...i wun be surprised if i break my shoulder with almost 20kg on each side for squats. siao man.
hmmm zzz time...
Juannnn [12:51 AM]
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Friday, February 18, 2005
happiness...
how rich must u be to be happy???...money can buy anythin but happiness...and love...and kinships...u can be the richest person on earth but yet not the happiest...coz u're rich materially....not spiritually...all things that u can see...will be gone on day...but not Him...as long as u indulge in his never changing love...u will be happy...but somehow we juz dun realise that happiness is realli quite free in the Lord...so we juz go chasing after temporary material happiness...
zzz...
Juannnn [12:15 AM]
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Thursday, February 17, 2005
owww.
gd day to pon sch man...aching terribly...haha. well no sch...but still a packed day...had chem tution frm 9-12...then spent 1 hour travelling to math tuition...frm 3-6...then to church....for a "extra ingredient" dinner...Kenneth and Sarah would know wad i mean. haha...and to True Way Church for some bible study thingy frm 7-9...and back home for piano frm 9.30-10.30...crazy.
bible study was not bad...conducted by YFC...well i went all the way there and juz found out it was bible study. thx to Ah MA!. haha...it was abt Matthew 7...basically...and wierdly i was juz recalling tt passage yest night...when i wrote the previous entry... the speaker said....Do not judge...but u must discern... isn't there such a thin line between Judging and Discerning...sometimes u juz dunno where u stand...
well...Shao Min juz sent me this link...gd place for u if u need some motivation. haha. here.
"Prayer is an expression of absolute repentance"...
Juannnn [11:31 PM]
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Wednesday, February 16, 2005
sun burnt...
arhhhh. my painful face. haha...Sam and Vic were desperately trying to hide frm the sun by squatting behind tall guys. super retarded... sch was juz damn slack today...everyone's juz thinking of 12.30 end sch!!!. haha. walked all the way to SP...to munch on pizza hut with Joel Fong Vix and XH...and while asking Dan wads nice to eat. he zoomed past us on 105...-_-...we went to Mac ritchie full and satisfied...haha. but butterflies were juz in my stomach...this yr felt totally diff. frm last... the race toook damn long to start lars...so many competitors...50 at least frm each house i heard...times 8 houses....waited for guys to run first...then the competitive girls...tension was damn high...i guess we all wanted to do our best...haha...well i think i din do well...10m into the race i already had a stitch...probably frm nervousness...and i juz ran with tt nagging pain all the way...but it was a gd experience...and u feeel soo shiok after tt. haha...i love number 53 now...coz tts my position...Mac Ritchie route cheated me lar...i saw the busstop...tot it was the end...got my hopes up...and i realised...there was 800m more...even when i reached the last bend...it was down slope all the way...but there was 100 m more...there i saw Ee Ghim...and he went "Hui Juan!!! dun give up!!!. coz i was half dead by then...and suddenly 4-5 girls juz sprinted past me and ended...haha... while sitting at the milo stand with Vic waiting endlessly for Xiaohui...we got notice tt she fainted...suddenly i juz stoned lar...and i felt so bad...coz we planned to run together but somehow she lost us...then nx thing we heard the ambulance siren...and got this announcement asking for SD4 ppl...Mdm was super flustered...well at least she's fine now...juz sounded a bit gong gong on the phone though... crashed GHK house...joined Vic and Sam...juz felt so rejuvenated...but tired...hha...then we met Joel to share cab home again...this time kena cheated lar!. stupid uncle...he went one big round and came back to the same expressway again...then Vic said uncle how come we're here again. then uncle said...i asked u all can i turn here u all said ok wad. *BISH*. day was going fine...until some inconsiderate ppl juz spoilt it AGAIN. twice in 3 days. sometimes i think ppl juz dunno how to think b4 they talk. somemore thru MSN. isn't tt wads it for. its to give more time to THINK abt wad to reply. or should i say insensitive and blunt. juz a piece of advice...mayb u dun think i'm even fit to tell u this. but u should think b4 u juz blurt out wad u think and hurt ppl's feelings. this may juz be minor stuffs. but think further. people aren't here for u to judge u know. one man's meat is another man's poison. so if its ur poison juz shut up and leave it alone laR! no one asked u to go and eat it wad. now i feeeel mean. but i felt like i had to let it out. if not u would neva know. but do u even read my blog. i dunno. dun realli care either.
Juannnn [11:20 PM]
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Tuesday, February 15, 2005
argH~.
one day at home...more than 12 hours...but at least i managed to finish respiration...acids tutorial's so so hard...and my bio lec tml's gonna kill...the fact tt i din turn up for the last two...she's probably gonna attack me...:(
i was watching tv juz now...when this thought came to mee.....haha. dun laugh. i was thinking how miraculous it is tt i am who i m today...and how u are who u are today...ok tts crappy...
tml's x-country...running competitive...i hope its not muddy soil again...like last yr...when a guy's shoe got stuck in this whole chunk of mud...and it looked like it was disssolving in quiksand...haha...actually think of it...its the first time i signed up for any competitive running...feeeling jittery already...at least got my frens to run right. haha.
LSP was damn SICK on monday...lnked frm the espirit pervertic story few entries back:
LSP: hui juan...ur fren..the one at espirit msg me u know...she said she miss me a lot...
me: huh? *act blur*
LSP: yar yar...see the msg...
the msg read "I know u got wife...but i love u"
like wth! how pervertic can he get...then Daniel and Zhu Ping had these delighted curious faces turned frm the front and kept asking me to tell them wad happened. argh. *goosebumps*
m i TT clumsy?!. this is wad joel tan juz said:
joel: x-country tml...u wan me to wait at the end of the line...to catch u in case u fall?
me: for wad...
joel: or would u rather fall.
GRRR. *BISH*
i like my number... 7069 ... hee hee.
Juannnn [11:16 PM]
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outta this world...
my mind wanders...
lost in my thoughts...
oblivious to happenings...
sixty sixty twenty four...
fine tt doens't make sense...but its juz wad i was like this whole day...barely the 2nd month of J2 and i'm feeeling tired...v. tired...not physically...exams are in 6 days...and they haven even finished the topics...Ac is juz crazy...
plus my stupid wrist now....i wonder hows training gonna be....and drums...hurts like mad even doing simple chores...i think i learnt how important ur hand is...esp. ur wrist. coz not being able to fully utilise it is already a nightmare....imagine not having it...
not going sch tml...reason: to study...need the discipline man!. hoepfully i can finish bio tml...
met Shir and Hui min after sch for dinner...so yummy...we were smart ppl...tp hop frm NYDC to The Big O hahaha...without ANY queue...met Ying Ying...haven seen her for like 2 yrs...haha...and Gerald and Yan Leeen were damn comical...miming away outside the glass panel...
so who says vday can't b fun being single? hahaha...yay~ gonna see Auntie Min trying wedding dresses on Sat..t....oo..and guess who three of us caught...with a guy. heh heh.
i'm tired...zzz
Juannnn [1:13 AM]
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Sunday, February 13, 2005
looong weeek...
well...fri...after all tt eating during CNy...haha i finally ran it out in the gym...3km...and cycling...but not much either...training's getting better skill wise...but mdm's literally breathing down our necks la!. everyone was like. WAHHH. WAd u all doing here...when they saw vic xh and i sitting in the chem lab at 2.30pm...
soo many ppl roaming arnd the sch when i left....for AC idol...haha...at least i got a lift home frm Dad and back to Ghim Moh for my mum's cell group's CNY dinner...the food was damn gd...argh. rem. wad Pastor said abt LENT. haha. DISCIPLINE...Auntie Anne's century egg porridge was juz heavenly lar...
sat...as usual weights...with my mum super unhappy coz i had a sprained wrist and the trainer juz kept adding more and more weights...sigh...well got quite a few rubbishy pics ...haha...of the guys wrestling with this super huge disc of 35 pound weight or sth...doing the russian twist on the floor.
went Ah Tan's house after tt....ya my coach...saw all my SC juniors again...terrible noisy bunch!. haha but it wun be the same without their noise...the food there damn nice again...arGH~. got baked rice...then his Jap wife cooked jap rice and jap curry...and we had bee hooon...and shandy...hahaha...then went home...for CNY dinner...with the CHIN family...where there was MOre food. oh no. and there we got more red wine...hahaha...taste like e holy communion wine again...damn tired after tt so went to sleeeep. i tink the stupid gym drained my energy....plus e beeer and the wine....
today's house visitation was quite fun...got to watch Dada's Laggy KOREAN SHOW...hahaha...My Little Bride....not bad lars....and BRUCE ALMIGHTY!. hahaha. food...was quickly snapped up...and the guys were juz hooked onto my bro's FLIGHT STIMULATOR. and we had a cake for Debra!!!. yummy. see...FOOD again. argh.
well..today's sermon was on Discipline..which greatly goes against wad u've juz said above...haha...but mayb its a last call for me to wake up and start chionging for my terms in 7 days...sometimes i dun tink its the studying tt makes me dread it...its more of....sitting for the paper...the time juz doesn't seem to pass...esp. for the Math paper...everytime i sit tehre waiting for 1 hour plus for me to hand up the paper...the wait is terrible...
its true tt there are temptations everywhere...but Satan's way of spiritual torment is juz unbearable...those few nights of last May juz keeps coming back into my mind...whenever i jerk outta bed in the middle of the night...the silence is juz so freakish...
anyways...its vday...so Happy Vday to everyone!!!. haha... i think i learnt sth frm last yr...tt Giving is realli true happiness...not receiving...coz think of when u receive sth...juz a small simple note saying hi...it shows how much a person cares...and knowing tt someone is happy...u'll be happier knowing that u're the cause of his/her happiness..:)
Juannnn [10:25 PM]
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Friday, February 11, 2005
2nd day...
well...my mum's 10am leave the house became 11am again lars...so there we went to Auntie Alice's house...now got soo many grandchildren...haha...but Ming Teck Kor still haven married...but her mee goreng is...YUMMY...then off we went to...my auntie's house...where we got fed with drinks and food AGAIN...and finally. to my 2nd aunt's house.e...
went to watch Constantine with Chong Hui Liying and their Dad....it was not bad...a little blurred storyline...but all in all the idea i got is tt Keanu Reeves finally believes there a God and heaven...and tt its not all bull crap...
so we all went back and stoned...finding mum and 3 other relatives...crowding arnd this SMALL MINI mah jong table they started on their own...haha coz the real one was used...are they tt desperate.e..
feeeel like snipping Chong Hui's TAIL off...haha. see this cousin! *SNIP*.
going to sch at 2.30 tml...for chem...i seriously think i'm slacking too much...but once i finished all my work...which i did....i find no pt in studying. haha...argh. help~.
was juz reading Man and Boy juz now...and i tink this is rather meaningful "To Love is to be able to Let Go"...
Juannnn [1:50 AM]
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Thursday, February 10, 2005
1st day...
haha today...as expected..we were late...but Rach's family was early FOR ONCE!. ahha in dunno how many yrs...lunch was ok...while waiting for ppl to flock in and we get our ang baos. hahaha. take photosss...and xinyu was juz hyperactive today...kept pulling Rach and i to play hide and seek with her....my cousin's twin daughters are sooo cute~. like 2 little dolls...
well...sth i noticed this yr... ang bao depreciating...food depreciating...people depreciating
Rach and i were juz stoning arnd ...and happened that both our arms were folded when her mum came:
her mum: aye. both of u look so fierce
Rach: ya we're the mafia heads...haha she's my woman.
and there i went hoppin into Rach's car to Grandaunt's house...without my mum knowing...haha...and we were the earliest there AGAIN!. see Rach u're early THIS YR. well...her LOR MEE is realli GD...and there was the greatest joke of the day...i was at the table eating with my mum and my two cousins...who were siblings...Ang Ling and Arthur.r....so our....hmm. i dunno who..some lady...my dad's cousin?...she said:
she: Ang Ling...v. nice to eat ah
Ang Ling: ya!!! so long neva come here...must eat more
she: ya ya...duo chi duo chi(eat more eat more)...wah is tt ur boyfriend? *points at Arthur kor*
Arthur: NO WAY!!! *horror*
Mum and I: *laugh like mad*
Ang Ling: oi! why cannot!.
Arthur: My GF where got so fat wan...if she's lidat...i die already.
so we walk over to my mum's mum's house...who's my other Ah Ma...where i juz rot away with Chong Hui and Li Ying...haha...well i got my CNY nap on my grandma's bed again...where they were playing cards...Denise the Menace's realli quite farnie...when adults paly mah jong...they juz can't stop...haha...
Chong Hui told me my 2nd Auntie's exclamation when she saw me...in hokkien " AIYO!. black nails black watch black necklace...wads this man..."...at least i wasn't wearing black right...haha
yay...tml can watch Constantine...Chong Hui had better booked the tix...if not it prob. be sold out tml...
hmm..its 3am...dunno wad i'm doing looking at the AC yr book...time for devotions...
Juannnn [2:45 AM]
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Wednesday, February 09, 2005
hmmm
Happy New Year!!!.
haha...reunion dinner's getting earlier and earlier...i mean finishing...this yr hearing the way my aunties talk...i began to realise we're all growing up...i mean seriously. we haf this children's table...then we "upgrade" to the "ladies" table now...haha...plus the extra three boys la. i wonder y. so today the children's table onli had my maid and Rach's maid...laughin to themselves as they gotta finish a 10 person dunno 8 course meal...
well had fun taking pics with my cousins and everyone...and Ivan Kor Kor's officially the Oldest and the Shortest guy already...haha 24 yrs old lose to my bro and Martin...and he was so happy Marcus is still shorter than him... Ang Ling and Charmaine Jies are still taller than me :(.
well...practically all the uncles were half drunk lar...haha...plus Ivan who was a red tomato face...mum din let me drink anymore after i finished 3 glasses...haha...wine is nice...like the holy communion wine...and my family got the bring the rest of the bottle home!.
feel the true love in a family...haha...i dunno y. but CNY juz seems to bring tt feeling out...well...my Big Aunt says...we go Ah Ma's house at 10am tml...we shall see man. i bet all of us will arrive after 10. though she juz lives 2 blks away frm me. haha. past few yrs...
my aunt:Eh 10am ah! Who late get punished
nx day...all turn up at 11am.-_-
well i'm getting crappy but juz let me finish up...in the car juz now
Mum: see la! all the other uncles...let their wives drive...u half drunk still drive i dun care. nx time i'll drive
Me: HAR. then we'll never get home
Jian Sheng: HAHAHA. YA Lor...but if Papa drive...wad makes u so sure we'll get home also since he's drunk
Mum: u both ah! insulting my driving skills izzit
Dad: HAHA. SEE.
My Maid: *laughs hysterically* *nonstop*.
Juannnn [1:12 AM]
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Tuesday, February 08, 2005
CNY eve!
finally...reunion dinner...haha...supposedly had a whole day packed full of activites...i end up ponning sch....canceling my outing and slacking at home...haha but its been a long time since i had time like this....did up my jigsaws...cleaned my room...read my books...other than sch books...uploaded stuffs...yay...achieved a lot.haha. esp. i finally got all my music scores for church organised. hee...k laz. get ready for dinner.r....
Juannnn [7:03 PM]
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Monday, February 07, 2005
Worthship?
today's chapel msg was one of the best i heard so far..at least to me...coz it was abt worship... worhip = worthship pastor barnables said...however u spell his name again. abt how its abt singing praises to God and showing his worth... well this song juz caught my eye ear heart wadeva...though its v. "old" already..
When the music fades
All is stripped away
And I simply come,
Longing just to bring something that's of worth
That will bless Your heart.
I'll bring You more than a song,
For a song in itself
Is not what You have required.
You search much deeper within,
Through the way things appear.
You're looking into my heart.
I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about You
It's all about You Jesus.
I'm sorry Lord for the thing I've made it
When it's all about You,
All about You Jesus.
King of endless worth,
No one can express
How much You deserve.
Though I'm weak and poor,
All I have is Yours
Still rem... Gerald once led worship last time...a very long time ago..and he told us the story behind this song...i still rem. it quite clearly.coz it realli teaches u how to worship God...its not abt playing gd music...all u need is ur voice...click here if u wanna read the story...haha realli meaningful... so in the festive mood now...i dun feel like studying...but terms are like wad...in...approx 14 days...i can't wait to set my hands on the 2 boxes of BA KWA laying on my dining table which is prohibited for now. -_-. tml going Bryan's house to dunno do wad...gathering with my pri6 ex-classmates...haha haven seen them for eons. well sth my Dad said made sense to me too..."You must learn to forgive people, then u will stop being angry at them"...its hard but its true... well....i'm tired out after Mao Yuan's crazy 3 hours tuition...though im' not going to sch tml....Happy Early CNY!. haha. dreaming of my dinner tml...*drools*
Juannnn [11:56 PM]
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Sunday, February 06, 2005
God of Wonders...
God is realli great~. not onli how he's made our worship without much practice come thru...not onli pass thru...but yet be able to glorify him and be considered a "not bad" one...haha...yea i was super nervous abt drums...but he din fail me...though with mistakes here and there. seriously how much can u achieve with onli abt 1 hour or less of practice...u juz gotta trust in Him and all will be well and fine...i mean yea u need to put in the hardwork...but when circumstances dun fall into place for u...u juz need to do that.
Wen Pin's op is tml...though i may not haf said more than a sentence to her since i met her...i tink her condition made me rethink thru even more abt how fragile Life is and how u should cherish ur loved ones...so juz pray for her ks.
well... today's worship's realli made me rethink abt putting more effort into my drums...since every yr i face the problem of making a decision between piano and drums...i realised i can't juz go on lidat playin piano and juz leaving my drums stagnant till the nx time i'm scheduled for worship...i guess u need to reach a down pt...like i did on friday...b4 u can start to slowly climb up again...same for my piano...after playing it for 13 yrs...u feel so tired of it...but music is a wonderful thing...mayb not to u...but it makes me happy...and i kinda lost it...for quite some time...b4 someone i met during the hols revived my "spirit" in piano again...thx...though u wouldn't even know who u are...
gp essay...here i come..:( ...i wan BA KWA!.
Juannnn [10:53 PM]
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slack...
today's gym was juz sianned...i think after tt talk with the instructor abt building up muscle to increase metabolism...us girls are finally willing to increase our weights week after week. HAHA. but i tink my wrist's getting worse...after carrying tt 10pound weight on each hand...this thing better help me in some way or other. if not i'll be wasting my Sat morning waking up so early. Tim Chan and Piggy were irritating lars. kept on clowning in front of me trying to make me laugh. grr. well i guess gym's not TT bad. when u do it as a team.
went for cafe lunch as usual...my yummy Fried mushroom with rice and cabbage and terriyaki sauce...yum yum. haha. plus fresh lime juice...b4 going out to the pool deck to watch a little of the water polo match between RJC and ACJC.how ironic that practically all my uncles and my dad play water polo but no one in my generation does. haha
watched my parents and bro eat lunch b4 heading home....and ended up quarreling with my bro over our stupid racket. fell asleep fuming in my rooom. :( i wish he would grow up SOON man. or better still NOW. well at least he did improve ever since he went sec1. feel so bad quarreling with him now...
at least managed to almost complete Carbonyls tutorial...and bio...sigh still got a GP essay to be done by monday...Prelims are lik 15th August. how soon is tt...practically onli half a yr!!!. *die*.
playing drums for tml...i'm already having butterflies in my stomach...without Sat prac somemore...i feeeel like i'm juz going to YE to "song si". well nvm...its playing for God..not for man...:)
back to work...and more work.
Juannnn [1:06 AM]
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Saturday, February 05, 2005
wanna sleeepp...
NOW. haha. its already 12.10am. and i haf gym tml...sigh...yest...sch was damn slack as usual...then met Sarah at clementi where we trudged our slow way to the wake...met her at 3 plus. but three of us got there at 5.30pm...due to some unforseen circumstances. which included unglamly sitting at the busstop. not stoning. felt more like a hindrance than a help...mainly juz to refill plates with peanuts...which Ian the PIG and Char and Jo chan and the rest of the girls started eating like mad...while the wind happily blew and blew and blew the wreaths down...time and time again. the feeling there was different again...i felt wierd...as though in another world...
juz felt lost today...the periods in sch juz flew past...ponned PE...i think i'm in a rather down r bad mood these few days...probably sounded irritated at Vic Xh and Shivali when they all refused to go PE. i'm realli sorry k...
frenly with Sc after sch...it was real bad lars...i mean yea my skills are back...more at least. but my service is crap. i juz served everythin out...the game took damn long but i lost tt set still...hmm at least i won one game la...but lost the other...and kinda injured my wrist...:(
went for drum prac...super terrible...shows how much practice i've done. haha...haven played since last yr...realli haf not much time...but i guess i'll try my best
talking to Gerald on the way outta church... i tink he said wad was on my mind for the last few days..."Life is realli fragile"...i can be here today and gone tml...juz basically need one accident. or some illness to hit u...and u're gone...and the onli one u can turn to is God...so much for ur paper certs, medals, trophies and everythin material to represent wad u've achieved in life...i tink a fufilled life need not even contain anyone of those things...but juz a close relationship with God, family and frens...coz without God...u wun even be here to be able to achieve all these things...and they're not forever...onli God's love is eternal...paper can easily be destroyed or torn, medals and trophies rust and tarnish...but his love for us will never change...Trust in Him and He'll make ur winding paths straight...
"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." -Romans 8:28
Juannnn [1:10 AM]
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Wednesday, February 02, 2005
fruitful day?
think i managed to do quite a fair bit of work today...terms are seriously coming up fast...and i'm like half drowning in a large deep blue sea. mayb not tt blue. more like red. argH~.
NE quiz today was quite farnie...seriously how often do u get to see 3 guys fighting over the Mic to sing..of all things our NATIONAL ANTHEM. haha. all for a prize. tsk.
tt leads me to think of wad i've read...abt having to pay a price for everythin...its true...wadeva we do...theres a price to pay..juz how big or small...but the onli thing in our salvation is tt someone else paid the price for us...how many ppl would willingly die for someone. esp. someone whom they know can betray them and juz turn their backs on them. think abt it.
anyways...juz set up a combine blog...for my cell last yr...click here :)
"Now it is God who makes both us and u stand firm in Christ. He annoited us, set his seal of ownership on us, and put his Spirit in our hearts as a deposit, guaranteeing what is to come." -2 Corinthians 1:21-22
Juannnn [11:39 PM]
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Tuesday, February 01, 2005
hmmm
day's ok today...minus e fact tt Gurmit Singh took height and weight!. i tink training was super productive...which is gd. things are looking up!. :) got my math test back!. 13/15 hee hee. but i was shortchanged 1 mark lors...coz of some extra number. first time in a long long time since i went to a funeral wake...first for a christian one too. the tables, food, all too familiar...frm yrs ago...but the atmosphere unlike last time was peaceful. Auntie Sharon's children are realli strong...and i admire them for it. Sermon was gd...thinking of it...its so true...u may not think that u've finished ur work here....but is it ever gonna finish?. its more of whether u've finished God's work and glorified him as he has planned for u. Talking to Max made me wanna cry...i don't know, he's juz so young and innocent, seemingly oblivious to the whole thing, but who knows wads going on in his mind. don't know how to react...u wanna offer comfort to them...but u dunno how to. probably gonna go down on thurs...but today's sermon realli made me think thru my own life...what if u were to die tml...would u be able to go with no regrets, knowing u've done wadeva u wanted to and said wadeva u wanted to...it made me realise how much my family meant to me as well. my brother may be obnoxious, but our family wun be complete without him... well. guess i'll make a chinese new yr resolution - to appreciate my family in every way...:) "For none of us lives to himself alone and none of us dies to himself alone. If we live, we live to the Lord; and if we die, we die to the Lord. So, whether we live or die, we belong to the Lord" -Romans 14:7-8
Juannnn [10:41 PM]
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